CELL PHONES SUCK

Last night I tried to get to sleep early. All the roomies were like, "What? Already? It's only 11." Yeah, I tried going to bed at 11, that's how badly I needed sleep. Sadly, it was to no avail... Was woken up in the middle of the night. Phone call from Kris. He was feeling horrible about everything and so we were on the phone for over half an hour, just doing damage control. *sigh* Some people are so STUPID... and that is why Kris and I were on the phone trying to figure out the best way to counter the situation. But no worries... everything is fine now.

Just when I thought I was in the clear and my head could finally rest on my pillow, Zairel's cell starts beeping out of control. Quite funny, she thought it was my phone and I thought it was her phone. It turned out to be a text message... haha, 1 text message that beeped as if 20 were being sent!!!!

After the beeping, I just couldn't fall back asleep. Kept thinking about how I haven't been the best person lately. Haven't really been there for any of my friends, haven't been able to think or do anything else but my own shit. And I keep telling myself that everything will be fine after Monday. But will it really? I'm sure some other deadline is bound to come along that'll keep me busy beyond belief. I don't believe that I'm really living. My revelation this summer was that there's more to life than just deadlines.... but unfortunately it looks like I haven't been able to live up to my new epiphany.

Don't exactly know when I fell asleep last night, or if I REALLY fell asleep at all... but was awoken this morning by a phone call from Arizona State's president. Was a reminder to myself that my conference has started. And how this conference plays itself out, be it good or bad, is a reflection of my work from the past 2 months. It's been a crazy, restless week... with no end in sight.