Monday, August 15, 2005

GROWING UP IS HARD TO DO

I now understand the meaning of growing up. As I stand on the brink of new beginnings, I'm learning that adult relationships are more complicated than I ever imagined. Things are never going to be as simple as the most sophomoric I-don't-like-you-let's-break-up scenario. No, now everything is built around these huge LIFE choices. And it's just a shame that oftentimes, our choices are determined by career goals. We choose to stay. We choose to go. We go where the wind (and opportunities) take us. But along the way, do we factor in the people we must leave behind? And if so, how much? I've come to the conclusion that it really doesn't matter how great of a connection is shared. Love really doesn't conquer all. None of that matters anymore if two people can't see themselves physically in the same place for the next 5 years... or even for the next 10 years... there simply is no future. It's not about thinking with your heart anymore. It's about practicalities and calculated risks.

I used to believe in fairy tale endings. As unrealistic as they seemed, I always thought I could be the exception. Now I know better; they simply don't exist.

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