PATHETIC...

...is me. As one of the most prestigious awards given at the end of each year, The University Medal honors UC Berkeley's most distinguished graduating senior. This year, they chose to recognize five finalists. What are the chances of me being extremely good friends with TWO of the five?! Dare I even claim one of them to be a long-time high school friend! (She went to a rival school.)

I used to think the the people who got these awards were those nameless smart people that sat in the front of every class/lecture and sucked up to the professors. But actually knowing who these people are makes the medal more of a tangible reality. I feel like the world is telling me today, "You could've had your chance... but too bad, SUCKER!"

Reading their bios today really got me thinking... WHAT THE HELL HAVE I BEEN DOING WITH MY LIFE THESE PAST FOUR YEARS??? I started out just like them. I was headed on the right track. Hell, I was even a supervisor to one of them for a whole freakin' year! But somewhere along the way, our paths diverged and now I'm left graduating like a damn nobody with a useless diploma that won't even get me a job. All I can say is... what a humbling experience. I'm not all that great. In fact, I haven't done anything with my life at all.