This sucks sooo much! I'm a graduating senior... and I'm home on a Saturday night! Doing what? Writing my f.cking thesis on pubic hair. Yes. Pubic hair. This night is a bust.

SNOWBALL EFFECT

My expiration date here at Cal is approximately less than 2 months away. Yet these last couple of weeks have been one wild roller coaster ride. I'm up. I'm down. I'm up. I'm down. Occasionally, there's a corkscrew. When did my life become more complicated than a soap opera?

... OF COURSE

I feel like I'm caught in a bad reoccuring nightmare. You are worse than a boomerbang. The farther I throw you, the quicker you come back! You'd think we would get tired of playing games after four years. But no, they just get worse. We are the epitome of a love/hate relationship. Don't do stupid things to make me jealous. We just end up hurting each other. Who else would you walk a mile for in the middle of the night? You know you care about me... much more than you'd like to admit. Stop with the silly facades. It's not about who has the upper-hand anymore. Don't ask me to travel across the country to visit you if you're not serious about us.

Ugh. I hate when people hype themselves up to look like heroes. True saints never talk about their good deeds. But their good deeds never go unnoticed.

OVER

It's hard to believe that everything is all coming to an end. I've given this institution four wonderful years of myself. I have done everything I ever set my heart out to do. I even dragged my sister into the whole mess.

It's hard to find the words to express how I feel. But I think what I'm getting at is that THIS is the end of a chapter in my life. I have to move on... tackle new challenges. I recognize that there are new things that I must improve on. Now I finally have the time. I'm not the same overly-ambitious kid that's out to conquer everything in her path. It's high-time I finally fine-tuned all the loose bolts.